Today

                
I find myself struggling with an emotional breakdown as the anniversary
of my Father’s death is barreling towards me. He was taken too soon, he was
cheated of a minimum of at least twenty years. I believed that I had made my
peace already, but now know otherwise. I still wish for one last laugh with him,
one last hug, and one more moment to spend with him in the physical. I know that
he is still with me, but the capacity change is a difficult transition for the
surviving love ones to accept. His early departure has taught me one very valid
life lesson; if you care for somebody, tell them now, do not wait until
tomorrow, tomorrow is not a promise, today is all that is guaranteed, so make it
count.
                 
I now find myself pushing past my comfort zones and overcoming my fears.
I am now taking ownership of my life and my feelings. I am fully living each
precious moment as the blessing that it is. I know that tomorrow may never come,
so I relish today. I am now truly living life rather than being taken along for
a ride where I feel out of control. Taking fear out of the equation, allowing
myself to feel brings me to my truths, and brings a sense of freedom of taking
life as the priceless gift that it is. 
                 
Today is the day to say what you feel, to show what you want, to live the
life you want. Don’t wait until tomorrow because tomorrow may never come. Own
your life, moment to moment, fully express yourself. Make no apologies for your
feelings, thoughts, behaviors; you are only responsible for you, your actions
and reactions. You may need to apologize to others for them to understand your
  position and their own. You are responsible for you only, and to others as
  consideration of their reaction to
you.