Imagine being awakened from a sound sleep to two identical white orbs floating side by side in your bedroom, I was in 2007. The phenomenon had my full attention and awe. There was a peace and knowing beyond my current comprehension as to the significance of these orbs. It would not be revealed to me until many years later and a culmination of a lot more moments that I would experience. These two orbs merged into one single white orb before disappearing before my eyes. I then simply laid back down and fell back asleep. That same year, I kept feeling drawn toward a certain physical place, unaware as to why.
Fast forward to 2011, where I finally placed myself where I had been drawn to, all those years before. There was a man’s voice that I first heard there, one that rang familiar to me, yet I did not know this man. I only heard his voice, never turning to look at the man speaking. Eventually, I saw a man that caught my attention immediately, at first glance. My full attention kept being drawn to him as he spoke with other people. It became difficult to not look at him as he was talking. He noticed me looking at him, and nodded at me, I felt embarrassed and had to consciously stop myself from staring at him. Several months later, I saw him again from a safer, wider distance, and I could not take my eyes off of him. I felt as if I had a laser focused and locked on him. I shook my head at myself and just let it go as a fluke.
Approximately one year later, 2012, I unknowingly placed myself within closer distance to this same man. The sheer energy in his wake of walking by me was so intense that I mentally told myself to get out of there. I laughed at this response and stayed where I was, as there seemed to me to be no threat. Very little time lapsed before I was speaking with this man. I felt comfortable around him, he was easy to talk with, and seemed intriguing to me, in a way that I could not grasp. Slowly, I began to really see the man standing in front of me. The most interesting, fascinating, unexplainable thing happened to me. One day, I was looking at him and saw myself reflected back at me. This made me even more shocked, perhaps even disbelieving, but I wanted to look at him more. Seeing myself looking back at me, as if in a mirror.
What happens when a person looks at their reflection for an extended time in a mirror? I know what happened to me. At first, I saw myself in positive ways, unlike ever before. This was amazing and frightening at the same time. Well, I started to see all my negative traits too. Now this is where my life became a challenge. For the first time, I knew that I had not been living my truth. Aware that I could no longer be inauthentic with myself. The journey back to myself, in the purest state was unfolding. However, I was confused by how meeting, and interacting with this man could show me back to me. An unhealthy perception of his role in my life was adopted. Only now, do I understand the purpose of my connection with this man.
Fast forward to 2011, where I finally placed myself where I had been drawn to, all those years before. There was a man’s voice that I first heard there, one that rang familiar to me, yet I did not know this man. I only heard his voice, never turning to look at the man speaking. Eventually, I saw a man that caught my attention immediately, at first glance. My full attention kept being drawn to him as he spoke with other people. It became difficult to not look at him as he was talking. He noticed me looking at him, and nodded at me, I felt embarrassed and had to consciously stop myself from staring at him. Several months later, I saw him again from a safer, wider distance, and I could not take my eyes off of him. I felt as if I had a laser focused and locked on him. I shook my head at myself and just let it go as a fluke.
Approximately one year later, 2012, I unknowingly placed myself within closer distance to this same man. The sheer energy in his wake of walking by me was so intense that I mentally told myself to get out of there. I laughed at this response and stayed where I was, as there seemed to me to be no threat. Very little time lapsed before I was speaking with this man. I felt comfortable around him, he was easy to talk with, and seemed intriguing to me, in a way that I could not grasp. Slowly, I began to really see the man standing in front of me. The most interesting, fascinating, unexplainable thing happened to me. One day, I was looking at him and saw myself reflected back at me. This made me even more shocked, perhaps even disbelieving, but I wanted to look at him more. Seeing myself looking back at me, as if in a mirror.
What happens when a person looks at their reflection for an extended time in a mirror? I know what happened to me. At first, I saw myself in positive ways, unlike ever before. This was amazing and frightening at the same time. Well, I started to see all my negative traits too. Now this is where my life became a challenge. For the first time, I knew that I had not been living my truth. Aware that I could no longer be inauthentic with myself. The journey back to myself, in the purest state was unfolding. However, I was confused by how meeting, and interacting with this man could show me back to me. An unhealthy perception of his role in my life was adopted. Only now, do I understand the purpose of my connection with this man.
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