My Dearest Adam,
As a little girl I witnessed great love between two people. The energy of the love was unmistakable and impossible to not notice. My attention was drawn to the overwhelming magnitude of the love that could instantly fill a room and continue to expand. I have also witnessed these two people that loved each other so much begin to hurt and attack each other. I watched the love tarnish between them as they began to hold onto the pain and hurt that they caused each other, and their own pride separated them. Oh, they finally forgave each other, and surrendered to their love again, on my father’s death bed. The powerful love between them flooded the room and expanded out commanding notice. My brother and I cried witnessing the surrender back into the love that they buried beneath the pain and hurt and pride.
I vowed that if I was to ever know great love myself, that I would treasure and cherish it, and not let it leave my life. Trust me I know just how short life is, and if you love somebody, you should let them know. I have experienced great love, unconditional love with you, and then been forced back into conditions. It is not by accident, I had to overcome all the conditions that are in resistance to love itself. I first had to breakthrough my own conditions that were keeping me from loving myself. Now I had to learn to love, accept, and embrace all of me. You see meeting you brought me face to face with the things within me that I did not want to face. It scared the hell out of me, so I ran. It did not take long before I realized that was impossible to outrun my own shadow. I now had to face my fears, my shadows, my darkness, the deepest parts of me that I tried to avoid, reject, or abandon. You knew that I had to face these inner demons of my own, and any time I tried to avoid them you would confront me. Your support and strength were a guiding light, and ray of hope through the darkest parts of my journey to self-love.
You lit me on fire and brought me back to God, restored my faith. You were the sunshine on my face reminding me that I was basking in light, even when facing the depths of my darkness. You continue to be the sunlight warming my heart and soul. Our connection has taught me that there is no separation between us, that even when physically separated, we remain connected. It is almost torture loving someone that I am so profoundly connected with yet does not choose to bring us together. I cry from my depths to release you in an outward sense from my life, there is no way to severe the connection. I literally feel you, and you feel me. I struggle to understand how we are not together physically when we are together in EVERY other sense. I have tried to be with other men, and feel you feeling and responding to the energy that is meant for YOU. I trust that if God brought us into each other’s lives that there is a higher purpose, and that if we did not believe in the love and connection would no longer have any outward contact with each other. We have both tried to push each other away, to let the other move on, yet we are unable to accept not having the other in our life. You show up in my dreams telling me that you love me over and over and I dream of you kissing me. I wake up without you beside me, yet I feel your presence with me. The imprinted image of your amazing heart and soul lighting up your face with your smile is before me always. I live for the day that you are physically beside me; the last face I see before I go to sleep, and the first thing I see when I wake up. Every time we are physically together, I feel safe, at home, and that the world is only filled with love. I know that I have all of that within myself because you are the mirror outside of me to show me to myself.
Eternally Yours,
Eve
As a little girl I witnessed great love between two people. The energy of the love was unmistakable and impossible to not notice. My attention was drawn to the overwhelming magnitude of the love that could instantly fill a room and continue to expand. I have also witnessed these two people that loved each other so much begin to hurt and attack each other. I watched the love tarnish between them as they began to hold onto the pain and hurt that they caused each other, and their own pride separated them. Oh, they finally forgave each other, and surrendered to their love again, on my father’s death bed. The powerful love between them flooded the room and expanded out commanding notice. My brother and I cried witnessing the surrender back into the love that they buried beneath the pain and hurt and pride.
I vowed that if I was to ever know great love myself, that I would treasure and cherish it, and not let it leave my life. Trust me I know just how short life is, and if you love somebody, you should let them know. I have experienced great love, unconditional love with you, and then been forced back into conditions. It is not by accident, I had to overcome all the conditions that are in resistance to love itself. I first had to breakthrough my own conditions that were keeping me from loving myself. Now I had to learn to love, accept, and embrace all of me. You see meeting you brought me face to face with the things within me that I did not want to face. It scared the hell out of me, so I ran. It did not take long before I realized that was impossible to outrun my own shadow. I now had to face my fears, my shadows, my darkness, the deepest parts of me that I tried to avoid, reject, or abandon. You knew that I had to face these inner demons of my own, and any time I tried to avoid them you would confront me. Your support and strength were a guiding light, and ray of hope through the darkest parts of my journey to self-love.
You lit me on fire and brought me back to God, restored my faith. You were the sunshine on my face reminding me that I was basking in light, even when facing the depths of my darkness. You continue to be the sunlight warming my heart and soul. Our connection has taught me that there is no separation between us, that even when physically separated, we remain connected. It is almost torture loving someone that I am so profoundly connected with yet does not choose to bring us together. I cry from my depths to release you in an outward sense from my life, there is no way to severe the connection. I literally feel you, and you feel me. I struggle to understand how we are not together physically when we are together in EVERY other sense. I have tried to be with other men, and feel you feeling and responding to the energy that is meant for YOU. I trust that if God brought us into each other’s lives that there is a higher purpose, and that if we did not believe in the love and connection would no longer have any outward contact with each other. We have both tried to push each other away, to let the other move on, yet we are unable to accept not having the other in our life. You show up in my dreams telling me that you love me over and over and I dream of you kissing me. I wake up without you beside me, yet I feel your presence with me. The imprinted image of your amazing heart and soul lighting up your face with your smile is before me always. I live for the day that you are physically beside me; the last face I see before I go to sleep, and the first thing I see when I wake up. Every time we are physically together, I feel safe, at home, and that the world is only filled with love. I know that I have all of that within myself because you are the mirror outside of me to show me to myself.
Eternally Yours,
Eve