My Dearest Adam,
When I was a little girl, I knew that I was different, that I was an unconditional being. I knew that I had chosen a life path to be, and make a real difference, and contribution to this world. So many people want a true love connection, and never have it, yet others have it, but never fully own it. I know that life is short, and so I want to own my experiences, connections, and love. I was in a store as a little girl, and this little boy was following me through the store, and I almost didn’t notice him. He caught my full attention, in a clearing by the registers, and luggage. I remember both of us there, staring at each other. We seemed to be in a vacuum, until his mom started calling him because they had to leave. That little boy caught my attention in that short, yet fateful moment that remained in my thoughts, even to this day.
I was always aware of your existence, all my life, believed that one day we would meet, and be together sharing a great love. Time passed, we still had not met as adults, so I thought maybe I was holding onto a fairy tale. I surrendered to a more traditional love, and settled down, having a family. Having chosen this spiritual path in life, my life was filled with karma, and lessons, all lives are, but I feel everything to my soul, mine, and others as well. Again, I had begun to think I was deluding myself, that I would meet “the one” in this life, at least as an adult. My traditional, and worldly lives were about to collide. In 2007, I awoke to two white orbs floating side by side in my room, I watched them merge into one. Now I believe that was God symbolically showing me what was to come. I was so torn inside of myself, living a life on the outside that did not match what I knew from my soul on the inside. I cried out to God in frustration that I knew this was not the life that he had for me, and I told him to deliver me into the life he had for me.
Worldly time, and Gods divine timing do not always intersect when we expect in our lives, but trust me, if God has it fated to be, it will happen. You walked into the room, and your energy followed you in a thick wake, trailing behind you. I stared after you, in awe of the wake you left in passing by, wondering who you were to make such an instant impact. My ego conscience screamed at me to “Get Out!”. I laughed at such a response and stayed, passing the whole thing of as imagined. It seems my ego, and mind knew you were the game changer. I was still blissfully unaware, and quite happy in my unknowing. Well, perhaps I knew deep down, and told myself to only look at you, interact with you from a certain physical distance. Only allowing myself to view you from a “safe” perspective. We talked, and you shared hopes, dreams, and aspirations with me. There seemed a very etheric dreamlike quality to our discussions. One day, I decided to really “look” at the man in front of me, really “see” my dearest friend in all his glory. In that moment, you became like a mirror right before me. It was like looking at myself in the male form, it was fascinating.
God wanted to get my attention as to who you are. That one fateful touch of your hand, was so powerful, reaching my soul, as if surviving an atomic bomb. I used to think that was the hardest part, surviving the intense recognition, and that we are connected, in ways that I was unaware. However, God made it clear to me, Adam, that you are the man in the Garden of Eden with me. Truly, the most difficult part is that I now had to acknowledge that I committed the first sin, and I convinced you to as well. Remember when I looked at you, and let you know that we never left the Garden of Eden, and that only our perceptions made us believe that we had? You asked me the same question in return, as if saying it again helped for us both to process it. Back to the first sin, as soon as we ate of the fruit of knowledge, we were tainted, and all other sins spun off from the original. The so called “knowledge” created veils of worldly beliefs that made us feel removed from the Garden of Eden, unable to “see” each other, or recognize each other. Now, I had to “unlearn” the worldly truths, to come into “the truth” which is that only love is real. We choose to give reality to everything else, and that reality that we create may remove us from love itself. Love of God, of self, of each other, of everyone, and everything. This is where free will choice creates our reality, or how we choose to live our lives. I now choose love, and no longer keep the leaves on me, exposing myself authentically to God, me, you, and the world.
Eternally Yours,
Eve
When I was a little girl, I knew that I was different, that I was an unconditional being. I knew that I had chosen a life path to be, and make a real difference, and contribution to this world. So many people want a true love connection, and never have it, yet others have it, but never fully own it. I know that life is short, and so I want to own my experiences, connections, and love. I was in a store as a little girl, and this little boy was following me through the store, and I almost didn’t notice him. He caught my full attention, in a clearing by the registers, and luggage. I remember both of us there, staring at each other. We seemed to be in a vacuum, until his mom started calling him because they had to leave. That little boy caught my attention in that short, yet fateful moment that remained in my thoughts, even to this day.
I was always aware of your existence, all my life, believed that one day we would meet, and be together sharing a great love. Time passed, we still had not met as adults, so I thought maybe I was holding onto a fairy tale. I surrendered to a more traditional love, and settled down, having a family. Having chosen this spiritual path in life, my life was filled with karma, and lessons, all lives are, but I feel everything to my soul, mine, and others as well. Again, I had begun to think I was deluding myself, that I would meet “the one” in this life, at least as an adult. My traditional, and worldly lives were about to collide. In 2007, I awoke to two white orbs floating side by side in my room, I watched them merge into one. Now I believe that was God symbolically showing me what was to come. I was so torn inside of myself, living a life on the outside that did not match what I knew from my soul on the inside. I cried out to God in frustration that I knew this was not the life that he had for me, and I told him to deliver me into the life he had for me.
Worldly time, and Gods divine timing do not always intersect when we expect in our lives, but trust me, if God has it fated to be, it will happen. You walked into the room, and your energy followed you in a thick wake, trailing behind you. I stared after you, in awe of the wake you left in passing by, wondering who you were to make such an instant impact. My ego conscience screamed at me to “Get Out!”. I laughed at such a response and stayed, passing the whole thing of as imagined. It seems my ego, and mind knew you were the game changer. I was still blissfully unaware, and quite happy in my unknowing. Well, perhaps I knew deep down, and told myself to only look at you, interact with you from a certain physical distance. Only allowing myself to view you from a “safe” perspective. We talked, and you shared hopes, dreams, and aspirations with me. There seemed a very etheric dreamlike quality to our discussions. One day, I decided to really “look” at the man in front of me, really “see” my dearest friend in all his glory. In that moment, you became like a mirror right before me. It was like looking at myself in the male form, it was fascinating.
God wanted to get my attention as to who you are. That one fateful touch of your hand, was so powerful, reaching my soul, as if surviving an atomic bomb. I used to think that was the hardest part, surviving the intense recognition, and that we are connected, in ways that I was unaware. However, God made it clear to me, Adam, that you are the man in the Garden of Eden with me. Truly, the most difficult part is that I now had to acknowledge that I committed the first sin, and I convinced you to as well. Remember when I looked at you, and let you know that we never left the Garden of Eden, and that only our perceptions made us believe that we had? You asked me the same question in return, as if saying it again helped for us both to process it. Back to the first sin, as soon as we ate of the fruit of knowledge, we were tainted, and all other sins spun off from the original. The so called “knowledge” created veils of worldly beliefs that made us feel removed from the Garden of Eden, unable to “see” each other, or recognize each other. Now, I had to “unlearn” the worldly truths, to come into “the truth” which is that only love is real. We choose to give reality to everything else, and that reality that we create may remove us from love itself. Love of God, of self, of each other, of everyone, and everything. This is where free will choice creates our reality, or how we choose to live our lives. I now choose love, and no longer keep the leaves on me, exposing myself authentically to God, me, you, and the world.
Eternally Yours,
Eve