The day that my spiritual awakening began was profound. Sure, it seemed as if any other day, until the fateful moment that my soul was awakened. I had convinced myself that I had a “crush” on a man, but God let me know just how mistaken I was. When I reflect back on the incident, it is clear to me now, however, at that time it created a plethora of emotions, reactions, and questions. I know what happened to me that day changed me forever. The simple grazing of his hand against mine created a chain reaction within my body.
The manner of the hand graze may have been unintentional, but it took my breath away. I felt as if something dove into my body through the top of my head, and washed through my entire body downward. My immediate reaction was a knowing fact that I would not be able to control this. It was obvious that my connection to this man was much bigger than me. I interacted with this man that day as if nothing eventful had occurred. All the while my mind was reeling from what had just happened.
After that day, I tried to carry on with my life as I always had, but it no longer fit. I was now being called by God to transform myself. God had a plan for me, and I was now placed on the path that He had for me. This created a duality within me. I was now aware that I had been sleep walking through my life. Now I had been slapped awake, and was lost and disoriented. My mind began to question, and challenge everything that I knew, was taught, or learned. I had to reject false truths and admit actual truths. The misconceptions floated out of me so rapidly, and I sensed each one as it fled. It was like bubbles leaving my body. I was surprised at some beliefs that left, as I had not thought them to be a lie.
The mental storm cleared and I was thankful, believing that to be the end. God now brought me through the eye of the storm and into the emotional storm. Behind all thought patterns lies feelings. Now, I had to deal with all the feelings underneath all the misconceived thoughts that I had just purged. The emotions attached, that I had avoided feeling before was intense. The purging of the emotions behind the thoughts is necessary to create a new foundation of living. The new platform of living is not in the past, not in the future, but in the present moment.
Living in the moment creates a vulnerability, a transparency. I had to adapt to being a transparent being, fully myself within every moment. I had to determine my worth, my truth, my reason for being now. I no longer accepted an inactive role in my life, and became an active participant in living my life. I transcended surviving my life, to come into living my life. This was perhaps the most liberating reward and truth in my spiritual evolution that began with an awakening touch.
The manner of the hand graze may have been unintentional, but it took my breath away. I felt as if something dove into my body through the top of my head, and washed through my entire body downward. My immediate reaction was a knowing fact that I would not be able to control this. It was obvious that my connection to this man was much bigger than me. I interacted with this man that day as if nothing eventful had occurred. All the while my mind was reeling from what had just happened.
After that day, I tried to carry on with my life as I always had, but it no longer fit. I was now being called by God to transform myself. God had a plan for me, and I was now placed on the path that He had for me. This created a duality within me. I was now aware that I had been sleep walking through my life. Now I had been slapped awake, and was lost and disoriented. My mind began to question, and challenge everything that I knew, was taught, or learned. I had to reject false truths and admit actual truths. The misconceptions floated out of me so rapidly, and I sensed each one as it fled. It was like bubbles leaving my body. I was surprised at some beliefs that left, as I had not thought them to be a lie.
The mental storm cleared and I was thankful, believing that to be the end. God now brought me through the eye of the storm and into the emotional storm. Behind all thought patterns lies feelings. Now, I had to deal with all the feelings underneath all the misconceived thoughts that I had just purged. The emotions attached, that I had avoided feeling before was intense. The purging of the emotions behind the thoughts is necessary to create a new foundation of living. The new platform of living is not in the past, not in the future, but in the present moment.
Living in the moment creates a vulnerability, a transparency. I had to adapt to being a transparent being, fully myself within every moment. I had to determine my worth, my truth, my reason for being now. I no longer accepted an inactive role in my life, and became an active participant in living my life. I transcended surviving my life, to come into living my life. This was perhaps the most liberating reward and truth in my spiritual evolution that began with an awakening touch.
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